This bitter poison I’m drinking
It’ll erase the memory of the nights we spent together
You kept repeating  ‘from you I never want to part’
Yet you never caressed me, you just clutched my life
Tightening your hold, I’m now bound to fall

That’s not a pen, honey, it’s a knife
As the blade runs through my skin
I carve on myself three last words
‘I HATE YOU’
That’s not ink, honey, it’s my blood
Scars are forever, my forgivance, you’ll have it (NEVER)

If I can’t marry you I’ll just mar you,
For a firefly is no match to a supernova
I dived into flames just to save you and you weren’t there
Is it a matchbook you’re hiding? (I can smell oil on your hands)
Bluest skies turn crimson red, that reminds me of when she said ‘forlorn’ instead of ’sad’
The very colour streams down her face, sunglasses wouldn’t shield her
Darling, I never planned to gouge your eyes out
Still, the only way to leave this bed was for you to be…
Escaping is no use, I’ll hunt you, I’ll hurt you (that’s what you used to do)
Heartbeats hasten as she screams my name from her grave

That’s not a pen, honey, it’s a knife
As the blade runs through my skin
I carve on myself three last words
‘I HATE YOU’
That’s not ink, honey, it’s my blood
Scars are forever, my forgivance, you’ll have it (NEVER)

Stop praying for him to come and rescue you
What makes you so blind, why is it that you can’t see?
You’re relying on a man named G-o-d-o-t
She pleads and tells herself once again “tomorrow, tomorrow he’ll come and save me”
If you can’t be mine, as this night draws to an end you will do, too
(to the head, to the mouth, to the lips, this is everything you get)
Was it fun to smash my feelings? All these tiny pieces just won’t fit together anymore
(to the fist, to the wrist, to the veins, can you stop the edge before it reachs your neck?)

That’s not a pen, honey, it’s a knife
As the blade runs through my skin
I carve on myself three last words
‘I HATE YOU’
That’s not ink, honey, it’s my blood
Scars are forever, my forgivance, you’ll have it (NEVER)

I’m out of ink.